It is SOOOO easy to get caught up in the fluff and huff of a wedding. I keep getting sucked into that and then I shake my head and step back. If I get sucked in I become stressed and worry about the minute things that do not matter. The control freak pops out. Go, go back in the box, Now.
On a serious note I am almost worried that I will not be putting enough effort into our marriage and preparing us for a life as one as I am a wedding. Maybe that is why I am dragging my feet (only metaphorically speaking and mentally dragging because I have put together a wedding in just a matter of weeks) because I don't want to be one of "those" brides. It's not all about me, yes it is a wedding mainly for a girl, but I have talked to my fiance about what he thinks and what he likes. I gave in on him wearing his cowboy boots and a few little things. This is what makes me happy. If anyone truly knows me I like things to not be all about me (there are very few people that realize and know this because I have been accused many times of being self centered etc.) I love to make others happy and keep things on a lighter, happier note that involves others and makes them smile. This has proven to be a huge struggle. The minute I was engaged things started to pop up. Don't mistake my pleasing others for being weak, when it comes down to it I can be very strong in my stance and opinion. I just wonder sometimes how hard could it be for others to see my way and to allow me to do it my way?
It's almost like with so many people excited it might come out in different ways than they anticipate. I have enjoyed the excitement of those close to me and those that care. I like having people send me messages with links about dresses, veils, bridesmaids dresses, and just other ideas. I even have my honeymoon agenda printed off from my Auntie. That was such a cute touch! There are some ways that the caring aspects come out in ways that just move you and make you smile and feel all cozy.
With all that said I am meeting about flowers tonight. My bridesmaids dresses are Azalea and the colors for my wedding are pink and green (like Lilly Pulitzer) so I was thinking what about having Azaleas and some green flower for them and then a mixture of green and pink flowers along with some rusticky weedy looking flowers. I like the more natural looking bouquets and flower arrangements for weddings and functions.
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